in retrospect

i’m certain most of you could remember your first taste of ice cream, the virgin swim in the deep water pool, the day you’ve got your first pet.. the list goes on. all the memories that mark some of the biggest days of your life. it’s quite strange how most of these get linked to childhood.. pardon me if it doesn’t happen for you and that i’ve made such a sweeping sentence- i guess i’m just too young.

it came upon me during a rare occasion when i met a childhood friend on the bus as i headed for home after Pirates 3. the realization that made me feel far more unhappy than i should be after a mega fan-flick (with running commentaries courtesy of the patrons sitting behind me). much as childhood memories may lurk in your mind and provide some of the best memories you can only dream about now, the present may be far harder to accept.

would we now still remain best friends forever-given that we do not contact each other as our endeavours took us on many a varied path? would we still be able to sit down and enjoy each other’s company by merely staring at each other blankly?

or would we now find ourselves far more interested in bursting out into the world, to discover what our destinies are? that perhaps our next stop, be it london or melbourne, or even staying put in this island state, is pulling us so strongly that we forget to continue to nurture the friendships that we once had and cherished? the friendships that kept you up at night wondering if things are okay when someone breaks a limb. the friendships that made you wake up extra early on weekends to make it to training early in order to put in some play hours before the serious-weekend-word kicked in?

perhaps it’s better that we just continue with our lives and not meet up. this way we would never spoil the impressions that we have of one another from yesteryears. and someday, when we meet at some spot- during our travels- that we can say hi, enjoy a cuppa and think back of the happiest moments that we’ve shared.. things that can only come back while we’re tucked up in bed and our minds are soaring in the limitless sky..