in between dreams

June 30, 2009 at 12:07 am | In on life | Leave a Comment

It’s 10pm and I’m making my way home from school. It has been a good two long weeks. Wait, I stand to correct myself – two months, maybe even longer.

I don’t exactly remember. Sometimes, I forget the dates. It seems like the world is moving extremely quickly – and yet no one bothers to pause to see what is going around them.

Perhaps it’s due to the fact that we have all become too caught up on our daily endeavours to actually ponder about the things that really matter to us.

And what matters to you?
Could it be the wish to have enough money to see your children through whatever education they’d like? Or being able to sit back on your couch to watch the grand prix over the weekend? Be able to relive your desires to be part of a string quartet, or a punk rock band?

I find myself in between dreams at this moment.

Perhaps because my little sporting pursuits since I was a kid never quite materialise into careers. I wanted ot be a pro figure skater given my interest in disney on ice, until i saw a programme at 6 of how an ice skater split his (or was it her?) skull when the partner’s blade cut through it.

The entrepreneurial side of me always wanted to venture out to run a business – any business – but the thought of failure seems to be holding me back. perhaps i’m just a scared cat that way.

My (lack thereof of a) music diploma hardly took off and my wrist remains pretty much injured till today that I wonder if it’s still worth playing on a leisure basis.

I look out the window as the car whizzes past the Sheares Bridge. And I ask myself what matters to me?

Perhaps the reason why I am in between dreams because of my desire to reach my personal goal in life. That despite people’s belief that I could possibly never be good (let alone great) at Client Servicing in advertising, to prove them that I can. And that by the time I am 35, consider (if I find myself in a cushy enough situation) to just spend my time rearing therapy dogs to help kids – the way I’ve always envisioned myself giving back.

Although this dream could potentially make me die poor someday, but at least I’ll be certain that I’ve led a relatively fulfilled life given that I can look back and check off those little boxes of what I would like to accomplish in life beyond the dollars and cents.

So… What really matters to you?

2am

June 26, 2009 at 2:08 am | In Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

it’s 2am. i’m typing away on my laptop, making what little contribution to the slew of internet scribbles.
i’m experiencing slight problems trying to save my estimate on the server. clicking at the little ‘floppydisk’ icon hoping that the entry will be saved so that i don’t have to re-work at it in the morning.

it’s one of those surreal hours of the night when my mind starts to wonder:
how does it feel if i had a pillow under my head, bed under my body at this time?
can i possibly stomach Mcdonald’s at this hour since nothing else apart from 7-eleven is open?
boy, does john mayer sound good in this album.
how about playing some chris botti – but will i feel too sleepy to work after?
maybe some kings of leon would help.

okay, i’ve decided on john mayer. no Mcdonald’s and i’ll make too with my trusty blue Ikea cushion until i make it back into bed, hopefully by 3am.

the minutes ticking away slowly.

2.15am – the server’s up. back to work.

i’ll save my thoughts for 3am – if i’m still going to be here then.

and what is the route to happiness?

June 25, 2009 at 12:19 am | In on life | Leave a Comment

as i was sitting in the car and all at once amused by the squiggly lines turning up on my camera, i realised that i’ve fallen into a life of routine and perhaps, slight mediocrity.

sure, i have my passions. but i hardly pursue them.

of course, i still read and occasionally write by sneaking copy edits over the work i come in contact with. but i hardly write with the gusto i used to have when i got paid at least $20 to churn out a 200 word article.

i love photography. but nowadays i spend more time being in photos than actually taking them.

and what is the route to happiness one may ask?

“perhaps you could do with more money.” or “you know what you really need… .” or “maybe you just need to find out where your real interests lie.”

i obviously can’t be an ice skater since i can’t skate. no chance being a golfer since i am more accident prone than accident-free. a 1 in millionth chance to become a major photographer or copywriter.

and i realise why i’m happy despite going through a routine cycle. it is because i’m happy with what i do and feel at ease knowing that i can go to bed at night.

as much as it is about the money, in some ways, there is still nothing other than feeling the rush of joy that satisfaction brings. it is the ability to rein in the issues stacked against me and putting a sense of organised chaos to it. it is never about how much i make but how much i can gain (as much as i wished i woke up to realise i made as much as a pop star in a month). and most importantly, realising the littlest things about myself i’ve never thought i had in me.

i’m C and welcome to my world.

hell yeah I’m in advertising and I’m proud of it!

May 18, 2009 at 10:01 pm | In Uncategorized | Leave a Comment

in clients services, closet copywriter and passable scamp-artist.

if you can’t afford it in the first place, don’t even get one.

April 13, 2009 at 10:07 pm | In experience, sightings | Leave a Comment
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and once again, another incident that makes me ponder if men truly deserve to be given the credit they get. they get more pay then us (in most situations especially in junior/mid-managerial positions) and in the olden days, get the credit if their wives bear a son and are absolved from blame if their wives bear a daughter.

to further illustrate the above, there is one incident today that made me wonder if men have over time allowed the “credit” scheme to get to their heads, so much so that they’ve become stupid (and perhaps only think with their dicks and not their brains).

let’s just get down to the details now, which i’ll give you in point form:
- i drive on the filter lane since i want to turn right out to siglap
- old man in an old (i.e.: scrappable, approx 7 y.o.? model) BMW 3 series cuts in front of me, into the filter lane
- i slow down to let him pass.
- RED LIGHT. Man hits the break.
- i hit my break. close shave, about 2 inches away from old BMW and old man
- old man (with woman inside, presumably a date- details later) jumps out of the old BMW and starts using all sorts of hand signals
- light almost turns green
- woman yells at man to get in the car through out
- i lower the window “uncle, i let you cut my lane and you jam break you still dare complain ah. not everytime is rear car’s fault okay? AND IF YOU CAN’T AFFORD TO UPKEEP A BMW TO IMPRESS THE GIRL, DONT EVEN BUY ONE”
- old man looks defeated drives away trying to hog the right lane along Siglap

seriously, is this stupid or what?

our actions.. shouldn’t need to be explained by our sexuality

March 20, 2009 at 11:33 am | In video, web hop! | Leave a Comment

one of those lazy mornings where I don’t actually have to go to work (yayy!!! Leave is good!) and doing some school work research.

I stumbled upon this video that basically is a montage of different guys, talking about their lives – and to those who are homophobic, this video tells you that everyone is the same. We all have our likes and dislikes, and breaks down the stereotypes that people have about sexual orientation.

and yes like the video says: our actions should not be judged by our sexuality. this is not because i’m gay, it’s because I AM ….

about LeeHom.

March 10, 2009 at 11:43 pm | In music | 2 Comments
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I can’t just get enough of this singer.

Just when I was getting over his last album, he launches a new one and amuses me all over again. Of which, I admit, has been on loop and shuffle for the past days.

a sneak peak to the album, through MVs.

Another Heaven

Everything

Heartbeat

Seriously, I don’t know how he can play such complicated songs with so much ease, other than the fact that he’s a genius..

Parking ticket

February 22, 2009 at 11:53 pm | In experience, sightings | Leave a Comment
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Awhile back, my family had gone to a Chinese restaurant for reunion dinner.

I found a gem!! No, not the restaurant but this. Never expected we still had tolls like this given how we had gone high tech with IU units and multi purpose cashcards that conveniently beeps each time I drive cross barriers and gantries..

Who are you thinking about in this moment – Lee Hom

February 8, 2009 at 12:04 pm | In music | Leave a Comment

I’m not going to tag anyone because I know how time consuming these things can get. I got a message thru’ MSN to do this (I thought only ten people had to do, but obviously this girl has more people in mind that Facebook requires), and yes you would’ve heard me protesting from a mile away (ok, I’m exaggerating).

So I’ll end this here and you guys can choose to do this if you like- but do send the link to yours!!! A little peek into my music library…

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
If you don’t know me by now – Russell Watson

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Feelings show – Colbie Caillat

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Anybody seen my baby? – The Rolling Stones

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Waiting – Sugar Ray

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Sex on Fire – Kings of Leon

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
One – U2

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Wordplay – Jason Mraz

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Light on – David Cook

WHAT IS 2+2?
Love, You should’ve come over – Jamie Cullum

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Please don’t stop the rain – James Morrison

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Always on my mind – Michael Bublè

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Let me live – Queen

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Wonderful Tonight – Michael Bublè

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
To stay – Breeze

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Til Kingdom Come – ColdPlay

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Sutukun – Orchestra Baobab

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
S’ Wonderful – Diana Krall

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Twisted Logic – ColdPlay

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Somewhere – David Foster feat. Katharine McPhee

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Fighter – Christina Aguilera

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Hey You – Jamie Scott & The Town

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Underappreciated – Christina Aguilera

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
I Want to Break Free – Queen

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Love for a Child – Jason Mraz

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Cinema Paradiso – Ennion Morricone

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Good Old-fashioned Lover Boy – Queen

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
So Nice – Astrud Gilberto

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Louisiana – Russell Watson

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
You Don’t Know Me – Michael Bublè

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS
Who are you thinking about in this moment – Lee Hom

two weeks.

February 1, 2009 at 10:23 pm | In school | Leave a Comment

two weeks till school starts. school and work. work and school.

wonder if i can handle it?

over the past two weeks, i have been trying to figure out the irony of this:
there is no real co-relation between academic success and success in the workforce.
if that is the case, why are people awarded scholarship based on academic success? how would that co-relate to them eventually proving that they are the exact people required in an organisation?

still baffles me after such a long time..

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